Not Every Closing Chapter Is A Bad One

I’m sitting in a snazzy London pub, with my Three Best Friends. There’s empty bottles which were once filled with Wine and Vodka. We’re all pretty drunk and I still have a glass of wine in my hand that needs to be finished. We’ve been celebrating an end of a chapter. You see, when a Chapter of an Individuals life comes to a halt, negative emotions seem to be a key role in the package deal. Whether that person is facing a break up or perhaps the dream holiday is coming to an end, the closing chapter is something that we all wish to avoid – but this is different, a good one may I add!!

Lets throw it back to the 5th November in 2014, when I was 18. I was hooked up to a bag of blood at my local hospital, only later to be told by a handful of nurses and doctors that I had Cancer. They confirmed that Leukaemia was present in my body which required immediate treatment. The next thing I knew, I had a Two and a Half Year Care Plan shoved into my hands, requiring my signature and that was it. My unexpected new journey began.

It’s rare to allow yourself to have any thinking time in these particular situations. Life becomes busy with endless hospital appointments, whilst grabbing any free opportunity to spend in bed after a gruelling chemotherapy session. One thing I do remember was constantly being determined to get better. Patience was key and time became my mortal enemy. Two and A Half Years may have seemed miles away, but like every contract, it has to end at some point.

And amazingly, that time is now. What felt like a life long waiting game is now all over. I’ve FINISHED. 

As this Chapter comes to a close, I keep my glass steady on the table. You have been many things. You’ve had me at my worst. I’ve seen and been through a tonne of shit that nobody should ever have to. The Endless amount of Anxiety every night. The Relapse Scare. All of the side effects from treatment. Having to put my Life on Hold and loosing Friendships. Watching how it effected everyone around me. But strangely at the same time, I find myself wanting to toast, with an obligatory middle finger in the air! You have been a great life lesson. You’ve helped me appreciate the little things. Shown me how important health is. Given me new friendships and a closer bond with my Family. Taught me who is here to stick around. A chance for a new path in life, which I couldn’t be happier with. But mainly, for making me a stronger and better version of myself. Cheers to that.  



    • Leanne Cresswell
      3rd April 2017 / 10:02 pm

      Thank you! 🙂 xx

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